Cleverdemise
01-05-2005, 23:58
I developed axiety and panic disorder at the beginning of january and was perscribed one mg pills of xanax. This druged actually worked for me and i was extremely happy that i was becoming my normal self, however, doctores were concerned about me taking such high dosages of xanax at a young age (3 to 4 mg's a day).
I started to realized how fun xanax can be used recreationally, and i began to do so once a month or so. I've only had like 4 xanax "trips" since i was originally presribed them for medical reasons, but the last two have have neeb nothing like the 1st two.
The first time, i purchased 20 xanax 2mg bars, and i remeber taking 4 and blowing 2 (even though i remember that blowing is probably less effective than just taking them.....) After that, i was just sitting there playing video games, and the next thing i know, i was "Dreaming" that i walked to a bar about a mile away from my house, to buy cigarettes. The place i went to told me i wasn't of age to even be in the bar, but to try the bar across the street, and they would probably sell me some. Well i went to the bar (minding you that i have no recollection of getting to either of these places, just being there) and they sold me a pack of marb menthols. Some guy even asked me if i wanted him to buy me a beer, which i kindly declined no. (remeber this is all a "dream" that i thoght i was having) The next thing i know, i wake up in my bed with my girlfriend sleeping on the couch, and she is PISSED. I ask her how she got here, and she told me that i let her in. I don't remeber that. Not only that, that 20 bars i bought were GONE, so that's 40mg that i have no idea where they went. I wouldnt be suprised if i ingested most of them, since i have an EXTREMELY high tolerance to pills, of ANY kind. Well anyways, the cigarettes i bought in my "dream" were on the bed, so i actually did get so fucked up that i walked to some bars......... This leads to me to my next delemma. I did something like this one other time, and i had a lot of fun..... But the last two times i've tried it i've been extremely dissapointed (at the most i feel kinda heavy and giddy, and this is on 15 mg's), and i'm curious as to why. I've only been on the drug legitly for about 3 months, so my benzo tolerance shouldnt be too high, and i've only abused benzos 4 or 5 times in my life. So what am i doing wrong? There are only two things that i cant think of. Number one would be that i have an extremely high tolerance to pills, and when i abused them the first two times, i just forgot how many i was taking and took a LARGE amount. or two, i usually take then in small dosages. Like i'll start out with 6mg, wait like 45min, then add 4mg, and then wait 30-45min, and then go from there...... maybe i should be taking them all at once? ******Keep in mind that i have a EXTREMELY high tolerance to pills, almost any kind of pills, I'm not a huge drug user, but the last TWO times i've taken close to17 mg's of xanax, and other than being a little clumsy and heavy feeling, i'm fine., but BEFORE i've been totally fucked up.
I started to realized how fun xanax can be used recreationally, and i began to do so once a month or so. I've only had like 4 xanax "trips" since i was originally presribed them for medical reasons, but the last two have have neeb nothing like the 1st two.
The first time, i purchased 20 xanax 2mg bars, and i remeber taking 4 and blowing 2 (even though i remember that blowing is probably less effective than just taking them.....) After that, i was just sitting there playing video games, and the next thing i know, i was "Dreaming" that i walked to a bar about a mile away from my house, to buy cigarettes. The place i went to told me i wasn't of age to even be in the bar, but to try the bar across the street, and they would probably sell me some. Well i went to the bar (minding you that i have no recollection of getting to either of these places, just being there) and they sold me a pack of marb menthols. Some guy even asked me if i wanted him to buy me a beer, which i kindly declined no. (remeber this is all a "dream" that i thoght i was having) The next thing i know, i wake up in my bed with my girlfriend sleeping on the couch, and she is PISSED. I ask her how she got here, and she told me that i let her in. I don't remeber that. Not only that, that 20 bars i bought were GONE, so that's 40mg that i have no idea where they went. I wouldnt be suprised if i ingested most of them, since i have an EXTREMELY high tolerance to pills, of ANY kind. Well anyways, the cigarettes i bought in my "dream" were on the bed, so i actually did get so fucked up that i walked to some bars......... This leads to me to my next delemma. I did something like this one other time, and i had a lot of fun..... But the last two times i've tried it i've been extremely dissapointed (at the most i feel kinda heavy and giddy, and this is on 15 mg's), and i'm curious as to why. I've only been on the drug legitly for about 3 months, so my benzo tolerance shouldnt be too high, and i've only abused benzos 4 or 5 times in my life. So what am i doing wrong? There are only two things that i cant think of. Number one would be that i have an extremely high tolerance to pills, and when i abused them the first two times, i just forgot how many i was taking and took a LARGE amount. or two, i usually take then in small dosages. Like i'll start out with 6mg, wait like 45min, then add 4mg, and then wait 30-45min, and then go from there...... maybe i should be taking them all at once? ******Keep in mind that i have a EXTREMELY high tolerance to pills, almost any kind of pills, I'm not a huge drug user, but the last TWO times i've taken close to17 mg's of xanax, and other than being a little clumsy and heavy feeling, i'm fine., but BEFORE i've been totally fucked up.