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is life really what its cracked up to be, livin same ol day after day, always worried someone is gonna catch you for something. theres just a point where life isn't fun at all anymore and you cant jus keep getting fucked up, everytyme i think soberin up will make me a happier person, i always seem to get back on a bindge state and jus try to get as fuked up as possible. its jus to much to handle wit all the drugs, law, gangs, money, bitchs, hommies. i was jus wit my gurl today and she's quiting everything kuz she n her friend got checked into treatment, and i was worried she would try to get me to quit. she is the last good thing i have left in my life. i know she wouldn't leave me if i still use . but i dont know if i can live this way anymore, right now i jus feel like givin up on life and say fuk it to everything. i kno i dont got much time left i jus dont know how i wanna spend these days
Why do say your days are numbered? What is wrong?
Sorry about your troubles, sobering up is a hard thing to do. I was recently (a few days ago) checked into treatment for messing up ONE U.A. that one mistake costed me nearly 2,000$ and a half year of my life. All for getting high off of an illegal chemical ONE night. I have chosen to quit illegal drugs, at least those that I am tested for. It is just not worth it to take risks. I am making good friends with Kava it allows me to get a peaceful state of mind I truely love without legal troubles. I will always be a substance abuser, but I am saying goodbye to alcohol,marijuana,cocaine, and meth for as long as I am in the court system. (at least a year)
Your troubles however sound much worse than mine, I only know a fraction of what you are going through. You obviously have noticed your drug use's negative effects have started to outway the positives. When this happens you have to be strong enough to let it go, get your life back on the right track. Its very hard to get your life back on track when your drug binging.
billyloner
18-02-2005, 12:36
i agree with what robocop said - youll know in your heart if you need to give up, and if you do, then you must be strong enough to follow it through - even though itll be very hard to do.
brooklyn718
03-03-2005, 06:15
Like what popeye says, it pertains to life too, "It is what it is" were lucky enough to have it