Big_Steve
09-01-2005, 05:40
For the New Year, I've decided to take 12 months off from marijuana
smoking. It's just the curiosity of whether or not I can apply
myself better than I already am that's prompted me to stop. In
retrospect, my life and financial situation has actually been improving
in small increments over the past few years, so it's not a case of
"marijuana is ruining my life".
I could also lose a couple (hundred) pounds - so this is also a
curiosity of whether or not marijuanna is really one of the reasons I
eat too much. I've been overweight my entire life, though... so I feel
that it may just be a seperate problem altogether.
So as of the 1st until last night I didn't buy any more. However, I have a waterpipe, and I scraped the resin out,
smoked that, and felt a little less edgy and could deal with just
having "a puff". Last night, in an effort to get the last bit of
resin out, I broke the damned thing.
I
started around 10-12 years ago, when an
aquaintance introduced me to it and there was no particular reason why
I started other than to try it. It really took of the edge of a
busy work day where I use my mind non-stop for about 10 hours a day -
including weekends. It's been a regular thing for me to
come home and smoke - but I wanted to see if I could be more
productive, postive, etc. by quitting.
I'm a very cynical guy normally.
I have been experiencing
shaking hands, anxiety, my mind is ALL over the place, and frankly, I
feel COKED-UP. I haven't slept in nearly 48 hours. I don't drink
alcohol at all. Replacing it with alcohol is an unacceptable substitution as
far as I'm concerned. I'd rather smoke a damned bowl or joint before I
start drinking.
I'm close to not being able to handle it and buying a bag - but I know it's not in my best interest because of what I'm feeling.
This is one of the hardest things I've EVER had to cope with in recent memory.
Taking other drugs to cope with weed sound utterly ridiculous to me. I refuse to replace one vice with another.
Any suggestions - does a detox tea or something like it help? I mean, seriously, what's your experiences with this? </font>This has been a really hard day today... truly f***ing miserable.
smoking. It's just the curiosity of whether or not I can apply
myself better than I already am that's prompted me to stop. In
retrospect, my life and financial situation has actually been improving
in small increments over the past few years, so it's not a case of
"marijuana is ruining my life".
I could also lose a couple (hundred) pounds - so this is also a
curiosity of whether or not marijuanna is really one of the reasons I
eat too much. I've been overweight my entire life, though... so I feel
that it may just be a seperate problem altogether.
So as of the 1st until last night I didn't buy any more. However, I have a waterpipe, and I scraped the resin out,
smoked that, and felt a little less edgy and could deal with just
having "a puff". Last night, in an effort to get the last bit of
resin out, I broke the damned thing.
I
started around 10-12 years ago, when an
aquaintance introduced me to it and there was no particular reason why
I started other than to try it. It really took of the edge of a
busy work day where I use my mind non-stop for about 10 hours a day -
including weekends. It's been a regular thing for me to
come home and smoke - but I wanted to see if I could be more
productive, postive, etc. by quitting.
I'm a very cynical guy normally.
I have been experiencing
shaking hands, anxiety, my mind is ALL over the place, and frankly, I
feel COKED-UP. I haven't slept in nearly 48 hours. I don't drink
alcohol at all. Replacing it with alcohol is an unacceptable substitution as
far as I'm concerned. I'd rather smoke a damned bowl or joint before I
start drinking.
I'm close to not being able to handle it and buying a bag - but I know it's not in my best interest because of what I'm feeling.
This is one of the hardest things I've EVER had to cope with in recent memory.
Taking other drugs to cope with weed sound utterly ridiculous to me. I refuse to replace one vice with another.
Any suggestions - does a detox tea or something like it help? I mean, seriously, what's your experiences with this? </font>This has been a really hard day today... truly f***ing miserable.