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What drug changed your life the most?
Myself i haven't tried too many things yet, but i feel that i'm up for some new insights into my life...
And in what way did it change things, and was it for better or worse?!
LSD, definitely. It opened my eyes to aspects of reality and existence
I hadn't dreamed of. It unlocked parts of my creative side that I
hadn't payed attention to since childhood. It also made me grandiose
and selfish when I was using it too often, resulting in serious
relationship problems and some foolishly risky illegal behavior. So it
was a mixed bag, but it definitely changed my life, permanently, and A
LOT.
LSD mainly. As it showed me what else goes on in my brain. And helped me answer a few question
But also Marijuana, because without this drug, i'd be a dull and boring and an UNHAPPY person
weed, despite what people say i think it is definatly a gateway drug. becuase of weed i have now tried many substances and am a very differant person to who i would've turned out to be. i have a very open mind and can appreciate almost anything.
Toxicity
04-01-2005, 01:58
For me its definatly shrooms. It opened my mind to things i never thought of before.
white_lighter
04-01-2005, 10:54
well since the only drug i ever tried was weed it change my life made me really think about what i was doing to myself and made me never want to alter my thinking about buy somking or drinking
matti_2003
04-01-2005, 23:21
has to be ecstacy for Swim. His tollerence has built up a bit now and he has kind of lost the magic of them and dont do them as often but the first few months of when he first descovered them was the best time of his life and changed me as a person.
sands of time
05-01-2005, 00:05
Salvia definately opened some interesting doors but I think weed probably allowed me to approach life in a more easy going way which worked out well for me
blue jammer
05-01-2005, 02:52
2-ci
I first tried it in March last year, and although I've tried a few other 2-c chemicals, this has been the one I've done the most.
Just an amazing experience, and really clean, think the best thing was that there is no comedown with it.
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Creeping Death
06-01-2005, 05:02
Marijuana.
I've tried a bunch of stuff, but marijuana made me relise that there is after all a way to supress some anxieties. And it's not a bad thing, it's something beutiful. I would have been dead if i haden't gotten into drugs.
ecstasy was incredible.. it showed me really what a perfect world of love and peace could be like, if only for a couple hours. Definetly my best experience with any substance thus far.
enquirewithin
09-01-2005, 10:27
Hashish has had the most long-term efect on me. It calms, entertains
and destresses. Psychedelics, like "LSD" (I have never tried the real
thing, only the street kind) and mushrooms, and ketamine have given me
more life-changing insights.
Alquimista
11-01-2005, 23:43
What changed me the most? Probably doing xtc for the first time - somehow I managed to get car and go impersonating Schumacher on the streets.. it was winter.. it was crazy... nothing bad happened but I'm not gonna try that again :D
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mushrooms
It made me appreciate the little things in life that no one notices. (I
gained a great appreciation for nature, had some deep philosophical
bonding with my friends, and it made me realize how special all the
people were in my life). I honestly think shrooms are something
that everyone should try just to gain a new perspective on life.
billyloner
12-01-2005, 15:16
so far its gotta be e. wasnt really all that into drugs before e, had smoked pot a few times but wasnt really all that bothered about it. but i drunk loads (had been at university for just over a year) and was starting to dislike how much i was drinking, was just doing it for the sake of it really. then took a few e's with some mates i met off the internet and it totally changed my life around. feel im a much better person for it too.
discobloodbath
12-01-2005, 21:49
mushrooms: they showed me life through a different perspective
I honestly think shrooms are something that everyone should try just to gain a new perspective on life.
EXACTLY. I had a deep introspective talk w/myselfthe first time I tried them. I figured out where I fit into this life, and realized I had nothing holding me back, only my own fear. My outlook on my own life has totally changed for the better since then, my g/f doesn't understand it (she's never done them). I told her I took a walk into the future, my future. I don't remember what I saw or heard, I only remember that my4-month oldson became the absolute most important thing in my life, and that I had no reason to feel bad or insecure for becoming an unmarriedparent at 23. That this is a stereotype wewere supressed under, and realized that anyone judging me obviously didn't matter to me. She still struggles w/ this fact every single day, and sometimes depresses her to the point of tears. I keep telling her to try them andfigure things out forherself, it's only a matter of time before she finally does.
Anyway, I tripped again 2 months later, and while staring at the wall in my bedroom, the buzzing noise from the fan began to change. In it's pitch and tone, until it became this heavenly voice that somehow in one sentence explained to me what would have happened if I hadn't been enlightened that first trip. We both would have given up on each other, seperated, and blamed each other for all of our problems. While my son this whole time is being raised byher mother, I enlist in the service, and she becomes an alchoholic. And my son has this whole fucked up situation that he has to grow up through, and he did nothing to deserve it but be born.
It was a total revelation. I couldn't believe what I had just seen in my head and am still recalling it to this day and trippin on it.
I fell in love w/ shrooms after that first trip, and still love em to this day!
pacamohu
13-01-2005, 02:56
Dxm was probably the drug that changed my life the most because it was
the first drug (besides alcohol) that i ever tried. After that I was much
more open to lots of other things including trying new drugs.
I must say that Ketamine, the substance that gave me the first heavy
trip in my life and changed my attitude towards drugs - change my life
compleetly. The 'therapy' http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley2.gif I was given
by my friends learnt me to love myself more than ever and to understand
that I do not need many friends. What I need is a few good friend..
where we can together create our own little world an live
together happily. Before I met this friend of mine, I was a quite sad
person.
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Probably cannabis, because I use it the most frequently and it has been very important in shaping my tastes and how I choose to live my life.
serotonin
14-01-2005, 22:52
definatly DXM.
it wasn't the first drug i ever used. and it's really a toss-up on whether it's the one i have used the most frequently (i'm not a big weed smoker). but it has really changed me, mostly for the better, heheh. i used to be extremely unconfident, insecure, self-conscious, and shy. i realized that when i'm on DXM all my fears seem to disappear. i was always worried about how other people were judging me, except when on DXM. eventually through a long (but not so painful http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley2.gif) process i felt the way i did on DXM when i was sober ("confidence, shy, etc." wise). now i no longer have any of those problems. i'm sure i owe it all to DXM.
of course there are other things it has done for me, but i find that to be the most important.
before I tried 2c-i i only smoked n drank, but after my 1st time with 2c-i i've been open for anything. even though weed opened me to the drug game, i woulda never done anything else if i hadn't tripped on 2c-i
Dream kInG 42o
18-01-2005, 00:11
Dex, for sureI don't like weed and have had some amazing acid trips but I used to go on binges for like 2 weeks on DXM and getting to those levels is pretty f*cking incredible. Not to mention the dosage.
MDMA.. hands down. The mescaline experience I had was
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windtraveler
22-01-2005, 02:45
For me, the first drug i ever tried (not including alcohol, nicotine, and cafeine) just blew me away, and i havent been the same since. In one night DPT knocked down the doors to a very different way of being, a way of just being, without the heavy chains of fear, worries, and the normal personality set in stone. The eyes i saw the world through after that were certainly different.
The other drug that i have much gratitude for is ketamine. It also opened new realms to me and has helped me with my fear of death. During my last experience, i was even contacted and had a dialogue with a friendly entity.
Over all though, all the experiences i have had on all drugs have really opened up my mind to altered perceptions and different ways of looking at the world. Each substance has shown me different things, and i do not regret a single experience.
variation
27-01-2005, 21:40
4-methyl-aminorex (absolutely astounding)
impossible to put to words the true extent to it's beauty.
Thorkelson
27-01-2005, 22:41
I'd say that smoking cannabis has changed my life the most because of the way its changed my life style. i smoke everyday not to get wrecked but as more of a hobby, something to do. Mushrooms have opened my mind to all kinds of things i didnt think were possible so they have changed my life quite a lot.
nymphetamine
28-01-2005, 19:42
meth changed my life the most. i DON'T mean meth has made the best difference, but it has definitely made the biggest difference. meth and the whole meth-world made me see just how bleak life can be, how cutthroat people can be, and how i can go from an innocent girl to an intensely conniving bitchovernight. "life in the fast lane" from that first hit till the day i die.
Nadia Snow
01-02-2005, 05:07
meth changed my life the most. i DON'T mean meth has made the best difference, but it has definitely made the biggest difference. meth and the whole meth-world made me see just how bleak life can be, how cutthroat people can be, and how i can go from an innocent girl to an intensely conniving bitchovernight. "life in the fast lane" from that first hit till the day i die.
i also have to agree that meth & other amphetamines had impacted my life the most. i had experienced a sort of narcotic-induced enlightenment after using meth for the first time. initially, i didnt feel high or different at all. then, gradually, i felt increased alertness, interest, elation, hope for my life, and loss of doubt. while my friends fell asleep and i contined thinking about my life and its meaning i realized that (even before reading about buddhism & eastern philosophies) selfishness causes disappointment and depression & my purpose is to help and be as un-ego-centric as possible
brainwaxd
03-02-2005, 15:49
im glad we're not just talking about changes for good, because the most drastic and lasting changes tend to be the bad ones... yeah sure, after i did LSD, my universe changed and fluxuated inside out and i laughed a lot...
but themeth has been an under-funded, over priced hassle which for some reason has survived inSWIMs life like an annoying brat child that wants every bit ofhis attention and screams and whines and bitches until it gets it, with all other friends and family turning away and not looking back...
there's nothing more shameful for a human, man or woman, to knowand accept that they are not in control of their actions without a foreign substance... how much actual spirit they have will determine the depths, but the drug will make changes and hopefully for newbies, this can be a guide to which may yield better results
WoD_Survivor
03-02-2005, 18:35
For me MDMA is the most important substance for influencing my life. It had a profound impact on the way I think about life. Always having grown up ina two parent home, and always having everything I needed and most of what I wanted I could not complain much about my childhood. However, when I was only 11 my father had tried to kill himself. My parents seperated and I was informed while at the hospital by my father that he had done so because he was struggling with his sexuality. He was gay. Now at 11 I merely laughed at him histarically. Which I did regret, but had no other coping mechanisim in which to use. After he left the hospital my parents seperated, only to come back together 6 months later. From then on, things returned to normal. Sort of. My first experience with MDMA, which coicidentaly was with 2 of my now "brothers" that I have been through hell and back with, was amazing. My brothers were experienced, they not only knew the ticks and had all of the lights and party favors in there apt., they knew the risks. They had the knowledge that I had begun gaining on the subject nearly 2 years before only I had not experimented. They coached me along. Within about 10 - 20 minutes of ingestion deep conversation broke out amongst myself and another guy. As theMDMA began to be lapped up by my blood stream over the course of the next 30 minutes, I began recalling the events that took place when I was 11. I had never spoken to anyone about the event.How could I? I uncovered pain I had surpressed for 10 years at that time. I saw that my pain had caused me to even look down upon, or even hate homosexual people. This was against everything I believed, however. Of course I began crying, boldy and proud of it at the same time I believe. I was in uter bliss at the situation. I began coming to terms with the chapter of my life that was filled with trauma. I BLEW UP! You know what I mean by blow up right? Oh YES, I BLEW UP like I never had imagined possible. I was in total, what is the word, oh yes ECSTASY! Of course I am leaving out much of my experience but this was the profound impact it had. As I coasted toward the end of my ride I disscussed the situation further, and in a new light. I was freed. I was freed from the pain that I had experienced so long ago that was feeding me duresssubconsciously. I will always be an advocate of Theraputic MDMA.
As a note, alsoI do find mushrooms and mescaline to be very important and affective spiritual substances.
D-Lysergic Acid Dyethelmyde (LSD, ACID, CID, AUNT CIDNEY)
Life hasn't been the same since. I have found that the first trip is
always the best and most intence! I'm always looking to trip that hard
again. It is just soo much fun. I like the way it makes me think and
act. Everything has meaning to it....no matter how significant it is.
The drug that changed my life the most was LSD. It allowed me to view the world from different angles or maybe dementions. This was a positive thing.
Lacognac69
16-02-2005, 05:05
DXM has definitely had a great effect on how i view the world. It is truly an amazing drug, especially considering how easy it is to get. It really is a very insightful drug though, it has made me think in ways i couldn't even imagine and i have learned a lot about myself and others from using it.
dastardlymonkey
16-02-2005, 21:43
LSD hands down. Wow is the only word I can use to describe its effects on my life. It made me question everything then taught me that the answer is not to question but to just be.
turfshark_40
21-02-2005, 10:49
Mushrooms made the biggest effect on me. They let me think deeply about life in general and how I was going to live mine. Definitely changed my perspective.
Bloodrip101
22-02-2005, 09:52
i dont think a lot of you have tried LSD, because it opens doors to a new level of conciousness, you view the world in so many different ways afterward and i discovered different parrarel universes within my own head (very hard to explain).... i dunno ive tried my fair share of everything but i personally think LSD changed my life for the better
MDMA changed me for the better. I no longer obsess over little
problems. It gave me a whole new outlook on people. I have so much more
patience for people who I used to find bothersome. It taught me that
all people...are people. I am much less judgemental. It sounds so cheesy. I used to laugh at all of the
people pushing the PLUR agenda. Then I became one of them. I once used
to cut myself; now I love myself. It
felt like a year of therapy in a pill.
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LSD has made the most profound change in my life.
After 1 particular LSD experience i became a vegetarian, i started
believing in god (my own version, not the christian big man in the
clouds) and life hasnt really been the same since.
Lacognac69
23-02-2005, 07:52
I don't understand how weed has changed people's lifes. What exactly do you guys mean by this. It seems weed has more of a dumbening effect like drugs such as alcohol, and its usually hard to gain any real insight with it, at least in my case. I guess if you had really good weed it could open your mind more and be more psychadelic, but if you're talking just average weed, it is usually not really impressive.
All you acid heads:
Cool, I say, to your posts about acid's life opening qualities. I, however, was always the kid who liked dxm better than acid.
turfshark_40
25-02-2005, 03:53
Weed can change your life without having psychedelic effects or giving insight, it could change it by just giving a different perspective on drugs. Before I had done any drugs I thought that I would never be one to try anything, but after my first time smoking I realized that just because the government says that this is such a terrible thing that it needs to be outlawed doesn't mean that it really is. I decided that if the lawmakers were wrong about weed, they could be wrong about other drugs too, and that the only way to know for sure would be to try them.
egoDEATH
25-02-2005, 11:02
Life-changing experience?.....that would have to be the problem child of Albert Hofmann, of course. I was supposed to see the Devil and jump out of a window.....and if that didn't kill me then I'd legally be insane after five (5) hits? Oh, but instead it was the first time I experienced egoDEATH......an awakened state of universal consciousness where materialistic, self-absorbing wants and needs haveabsolutely no meaning. Unfortunately,this tool of enlightenmenthas become non-existentin this New "ICE" Age we live in. Edited by: egoDEATH
ego-death, although to me and many others LSD is the best psychedelic
there is there are still many others that will teach you the same thing
through different angles of your psyche.
Try mushrooms, DPT, 2c-e.
Im sure one of those will shred your ego to peices.
egoDEATH
26-02-2005, 08:15
Yes, GDxCAT, I have tried various other psychedelics (mushrooms, 2c-i, MDA, low-grade mescaline, ketamine), and they add a delicatable variety to the menu.......but it's not the same (you know what I mean). I'm the kind of person who'll try anything once, and I still have a long way too go as far as devouring all the entrees on the menu. 2C-T-7, 5-MeO-DMT, anda higher-grade mescalinerank at the top of the list of specialties I would like to try.
SPEEDY_PILLTIER
01-03-2005, 05:30
For me its is without a doubt MDMA. Before doing that wonderful drug, i used to be very selfish person (single child). I couln't see two inch past my nose and though everthing revolved around myself. I Wasen't a really happy persone even though I pretended I was , but i didnt know who. then i took ecstacy ! After peaking for a couple of hours on a single dose I popped another one .. and then my sober friends went home to bed. I went home and when i got alone I started thinking and thinking. It was as if my eyes instantly open to the world around me. It opened my eyes to so many aspects good and bad that i never though about, and what i could do to make things better around me thus making it better for me. I felt so good, it made me feel that the world wasen't such a bad place after all ! The next day i was a different person, much more forgiving and accepting. Now im doing better than ever in school. And about once a month a pop some E wich totally motivates me cause it lets me see the good and best side of life ! And who said drugs will ruin ur life, only did the opposite for me !
It would have be ecstasy for me too, It did some good but also bad, I ended up losing a faithful girlfriend over it, it started out being ok to "soft swing" and do other harmless activities while doing whippits with another couple. But eventualy it went too far. I still love it tho!@
Stingray_313
01-03-2005, 06:12
I know its been said a million times before, but marijuana definately.
Upon my first toke of this sacred herb, my life was entirely changed. I
got entirely new friends, a new image, a new outlook on life, a new
personality, new taste in music, new taste in movies, it just totally
revamped my life. Not to say it was a bad thing, but i wonder how i
would have turned out otherwise. Right now, i am a very understanding,
calm, quiet person. Without marijuana, i would probably an annoying
asshole who would always be in everyone buisness and would bitch a LOT.
Besides the personality and friends and such, i also realised so many
important things about society and social gatherings. Now, when someone
i walk by hits my shoulder in an insulting manor, i dont think "What a
fucking asshole, he should be shot", i think something more like "He
must have some real demons in his life to take it out on complete
strangers" and then i totally reassess my view of them. This has made
it nearly IMPOSSIBLE for me to stay mad for longer then 5 mins or so,
no matter how hard i try. Now i can only get mad if its just something
really stupid and worth getting angry over... like the fact pot is
illegal... im always angry about that.
I dont think anyone STARTS OUT with LSD or Mushrooms, but im sure they
start with something less hard, usually Marijuana. Because of this,
their eyes are more open to these other drugs, but if you think about
it, marijuana got them there in the first place. All of you who said
LSD, i think you should offer some credit to good old mary jane, for
without her, you would probably be out on a ledge somewhere. (that is,
considering you DID start with marijuana... otherwise, ignore what i
just said).
Peace.
hedonaut
01-03-2005, 14:37
Well, I've tried a lot of drugs, and not many have been especially life altering. The only two that I would say have changed me would be mushrooms and ecstacy, both in positive ways.
Mushrooms at times are just fun and other times have lead me to realize some amazing things about myself and the universe. Interestingly, the only two "bad" trips I've ever had have really taught me the most about myself and my innermost fears and how to deal with them. Very useful really.
Ecstacy because I had a REALLY great group of friends and we always were in the right environment when we rolled. I mean, spiritual bonding experiences mixed with REALLY universal love and some interesting psychic/meditation exercises.
Whew, good stuff, REALLY good stuff.
have to be ecstacy (then good qualitiy buds).the first time i took it was a pure white coloured mitsibushi ones,and i have not had a trip anywhere as near to that since and i doubt i ever will again.when i first took E i had a very spiritual experience what can best be described as communicating with god or whoever 'god' is, it was very moving and it had a profound effect on my whole life,, i dont think i ever really enjoyed doing fags&booze again after that experinece itmade me relize how trivial things like that really are,and it opened my eyes and spirt to a new way of thinking free from hypocrisy and deceit.if only thegovernments would relize how arrogant they have become in there zero tolerance regime,by treating addicts like criminals shocking http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley18.gifEdited by: dr ACE
probably steroids...
i'vehad short 'obsessions' with many recreational substances but in the end, steroids somehow kept me grounded... it encouraged me to give up smoking, eat right, and exercise, all in the name of performing at my best...
testosterone is not an addictive chemical but when you're not on it, you miss the little things likecomments on how much healthier you look, getting no-reason-boners http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley36.gifand generally being ridiculously horny all the time... you just feel a bit more young and alive (even though i'm only in my 20s)
i would recommend anadrol as a distraction to help anyone trying to curb an addiction... but make sure you know what you're doing first, and always have the ancillary drugs on hand for preventing side-effectsEdited by: glomp
Mushrooms - Cured suicidal tendencies/thoughts
2C-E - Showed me how I could be intellectual and that there actually is a God and generally made me a more positive person.
Still many drug experience to come :D
VIKETIME
03-03-2005, 01:51
opiates: showed me i could be a nicer friendly sociable person..next pot which also made me enjoy life a lot more than i had before
All the trips iv taken from the different drugs have all made me who I
am today, but the first drug I ever tripped on and it was alot was DXM
so it was probablly the start of the change
HazeInMyBong
07-03-2005, 13:19
I mean its called ecstasy. What can be better than that? The first time you do it, your life is changed. I realized my universal love for life andheightened levels of love for friends and family. It just made me a more compassionate and forgiving person.
Pot probably. It made me think differently and look at each situation, even problem from different angles
amtripper
14-03-2005, 05:10
for me.. i would say extacy...it gave me that profound philosophical
reason to enjoy everyday life... i finally understood the impact of
human relationship in everyday life... i now have a better
understanding of living.. because all we know is life and we can do
anything while living... but we do not know death and we do not know
what our soul can do when we die.
mariecurie
23-03-2005, 01:39
Ecstasy has always been far inferior to traditional psychedelics (LSD,
mushrooms) in my opinion. I've sampled pure MDMA a few times and I find
that it's too pushy. What I mean by this is that I find that it forces
me to be happy, forces me to like people, etc. but it feels very
artificial. With LSD, my drug of choice, the drug doesn't MAKE me feel
pleasant...I just have vast insights and become a bit more
"enlightened."
LSD has changed me the most and marijuana has changed me second most. I
can't smoke pot anymore because it just makes me groggy and puts me to
sleep, but back in the day it used to make me extremely creative and
euphoric. LSD just lets me peak through the looking glass into my
psyche, which is invaluable.
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I have to say LSD had the biggest impact on my life. I realized that because all matter is compressed energy and energy is never lost only changed that there is really no death. Came up with bunch of stuff like that. Never looked at world the same again
FrankenChrist
24-03-2005, 22:00
Ecstacy.
It was a beautiful reminder that there still is happiness and many things to live for.
I don't have experience with many other things. Just some tobacco, drink, weed and a threshold dose of shrooms.
korky8097
27-03-2005, 21:41
LSD or MDMA. But when taken as a candyflip, that experience
truely changes me. Those trips make me think about those around
me and my friends and family, my relationship with them, and shit like
that. I wake up and somehow feel i know those people better.
mariecurie
28-03-2005, 04:23
Good quality MDMA is so elusive. I feel that so many people who are
just getting to college now will never experience it properly because
they'll buy those expensive rolls that are filled with MDE and meth and
think that MDMA sucks. Sad, eh?
has to be ecstacy for me. My tollerence has built up a bit now and i have kind of lost the magic of them and dont do them as often but the first few months of when i first descovered them was the best time of my life and changed me as a person.
Ditto.
korky8097
29-03-2005, 06:32
I know what you are sayin mariecurie. I do enjoy MDA though
and dont mind if that is in my rolls, but MDMA only rolls are hard to
find. SWIM had a great pure powder source a while back, ahh the
good ol days. My first MDMA experience was very life altering
too, i think there was some MDA in it cuz i got nice visuals. I
was dancing all over my room and playing with tracers, first time is
always the best.
mariecurie
30-03-2005, 10:16
I wonder if methylone changes people's lives the same way the MDMA
does. Does anyone on here have experience with methylone that seems to
show that it has potential to be a mind-opening agent? I'd love to hear
more about this seemingly wonderful chemical. Too bad it's so darn
expensive...
jrock0069
30-03-2005, 11:27
LSD is by far my favorite drug and has provided me with many life altering experiences. However, I feel I was most impacted by DXM. I find that DXM has been involved in almost every drastic life changing event thats happened to me. I remember more negative impacts than positive ones from it but, every time I need to escape from reality, I find a gram of dex does the job perfectly.
Come to think of it, crack had probably the worst effect on my life out of all the drugs. Throughout my life, crack was the only drug that ever got me by the balls. Luckily for me, I have the will power to stay away from that shit.
anabolictrio
31-03-2005, 11:05
salvia divinorum experiences changed my point of view.
mariecurie
31-03-2005, 11:21
Salvia experiences made my life a living hell. I've honestly never
hated anything in the universe as much as I hate that plant. I think
I'd rather attempt a high dose nutmeg trip than go within ten feet of
this stuff!
I'm surprised no one has cited adderall as the drug that has changed them most. That stuff warps your mind pretty quickly.
Unquestionably psychedelics for the lasting change in perspective, a la
Ram Dass, "Be Here Now". But none of that would have happened
without pot, which showed what I had always suspected from the time I
was old enough to read about them: illegal drugs are not
uniformly "bad". Gateway drug indeed, and that's largely why, I
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korky8097
04-04-2005, 03:00
why do you have salvia so much? I mean im not real fond of it but
it sounds like you had a real bad experience.
I would have to say weed. Why? I guess it was my gateway drug, they say weed is a gateway drug and in a way its true.The thing is its only true becuase they are not trueful with us about drugs. Growing up my parents were heavy drinkers, my mom still is but my dad has had to slow down. The always told me that drugs were bad all of them. I believed them on the premise that my dad never lied to me before he always spoke the truth. When I was 15/16 years old I hung out with alot of people who smoked herb. One day my sister(older) and I were driving to a friends house and she asked me if I ever smoked "pot". I was like uhh no, and she said come on you can tell me I wont't tell mom and dad, I was like really I haven't. She's like you hang out with so and so they smoke and you never so much as tried it? I'm like no. She said well I have she said it wasn' bad and she liked it. That was the end of the conversation. My thinking was its my sister can do it why can't I. So I tried it and before long I was smoking herb ever day. I did so for the next 8 years of my life except for the few times I was forced to quit for a few weekseither by hospital or job.
For the next few years of my life I would only smoke weed wouldn't fuck with anything else my friends were into. One day I decided to smoke from fry, which to this day I am still not sure what the fuck is in it besides phormaldehyde. I didn't get to into it, but it was kinda could I would still not touch anything else especially addictive shit. Well my sister had been into e and acid and shit. Some girlfriends of mine got me to try a couple hits of acid one night. I was like man this shit isn't working on me I don't see anything, but the whole night I sat there on the couch watching tom and jerry smoking herb with a big shit eating grin on my face that never stopped. This lead me to try E. I loved acid, weed and e. I would never touch anything that was addictive though. Still to this day I have never had coke, meth, or heroin. Thanks mostly to my knowledge of my addictive personality I just know I would like them and probably too god damn much. I was forced to stop smoking herb 3 almost 4 years ago as my girlfriend's daughter was getting too old and we decided it would be best for me to resume smoking after she turned 18(only 7 years left!). I we eventually moved and I fell out of contact we every dealer I have ever known, and I had no way to get acid or e anymore.
Then a story breaks in rolling stone about this new drug 2c-t-7 that people were buying off the internet. Well it sounded good to me. So I research my ass off (2001ish) found somewhich I enjoyed and have eventually tried many research chemicals, and I am still trying new ones. Which these research chemicals introduced me to a man named Alexander Shulgin who's book I read, and throughly enjoyed. It also sparked my interest as something I was really interested in. So I decided it was something for me. I enrolled at the University here its a top 10 University for my studies which is Chemical Engineering. So after 10+ years of being a slackass druggie/pothead I decided to finally do something with my life to learn about something I have come to love. CHEMICALS. All of this thanks my very first drug I tried WEED. Despite the fact that I got expelled from highschool becuase of it, and lost a really nice job at NASA.I have learned more,becuase ofthis drug, about life and about myself than anyone could have ever taught me.So thanks Mary I will be seeing you again soon.Edited by: drwoo
Iggypoop
04-04-2005, 20:55
Mdma really changed my life, i realised that i was an arrogant, egotistical c**t, that i had to take other peoples feelings into account and not just my own. It made me a better person.
The first time i came up on ecstasy was magic and i'll never forget it!
Mushrooms helped me to gain a lot of insights as well, tho it is more of an on-going process.
lsd -- in part because it was the first such drug I experienced.
It showed me that existance is far more and much other than I had ever
imagined. I am very grateful for what I was shown/taught.
antigenesis
07-04-2005, 06:49
Having not done things like LSD, ketamine, and DMT yet, I'd have to say shrooms.
for me definately dxm. i had seen them talking about it on the news
and i decided to try it. it definately changed my life, more than anything.
i mean, now i am ready to try more substances, like lsd. because of it.
searcher
12-04-2005, 15:27
LSD
best drug that changed my life.....i would have to say finaplex....a steroid derived from a cattle hormone......i was always a shy and unconfident person ...but on finaplex (being a non estrogenic steroid) it hardened me up giving me tons of strength ...along with the confidence that it deserved......finaplex = god.... its not only psychologically changing...but physically changing....you can see yourself change in the mirror every day on this ....anyone with a low self esteem should try some weight training with a good cycle of finaplex....it will turn you into a confident....almost cocky arrogant new self
I don't understand how weed has changed people's lifes. What exactly do you guys mean by this. It seems weed has more of a dumbening effect like drugs such as alcohol, and its usually hard to gain any real insight with it, at least in my case. I guess if you had really good weed it could open your mind more and be more psychadelic, but if you're talking just average weed, it is usually not really impressive.
MABY WEED HYDROPONIC 30% THC FRom canada yeah
I have only smoked a bit of bud and drank a few times...I'm expecting acid to probaly be the most, when I try it. I'm worried I'll end up getting a shitty street hit and it'll be a waste of a first experience, so I'm a bit edgy about it. All the others who said acid - were yodu oign it in the 60's, or did you just get lucky and get a really strong first trip?
lsd and coke http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley1.gif
LSD for me, definitely. (I guess I m not the only one :)
Beside of Acid shrooms are quite nice of course but not as profound as
Acid. The answers & the mental energy it gave me are still there, I
took them from the outer realities into my life. The experience of a
complete egodeath is the deepest experience that can happen to someone.
And the whole bunch of research chemicals can teach you parts of it as
well, especially 5-Meo-DMT or DPT have quite a big potential for
exploring the self.
Every drug Ive tried has changed mylife in a myriad of positive ways!
1st time I smoked Marijuana - never knew I could laugh so hard, and never realized food tasted so good.
1st time I tried MDMA - the world opened up to me like a rising sun, gained a new and lifelong love and appreciation for electronic music, knew what it felt to feel completely free and at peace.
1st time I tried LSD - Earth shattering, time stopped, a truly pivotal point in my life. I went from being an occasional drug user to a full-on psychedelic researcher. I felt the fabric of time, I literally saw time stop. I was sitting in fromt of a 1400W sound system and DJ Poseidon's "Supertransonic" came on - blew my mind. That was 4 years ago and to this day whenever I hear that tune my skin tingles...I was flying through crystalline cities with my eyes wide open, I was in hyperspace...
1st time I tried Mushrooms - Unreal. I remember rolling around out side in the grass proclaiming how great it felt to be alive. Experienced true synesthesia - I could taste sounds. We were inside the house, and outside it was dark, just a sliver of a silver moon. My friend pinched a bit of the darkness and pulled it into the room - it flowed like liquid. We both saw it! The trip got so intense - felt like I was in the throneroom of the Gods and they were pissed at me, we genuinelythought we died. I saw reality crack open, felt my body beside me. Amazing.
1st time I tried Salvia Divinorum - saw the smelves! Which looked like all the stuffed animals I had as a kid beckoning me to follow them through this hole that had opened up in the wall beside me. Reminded me of a scene from 'Time Bandits' when I thought about it later. Will SD though - its not like a distortion of reality - you're somewhere else entirely. Almost like you traveled so deep within your rmind you came out the other side:)
Haven't yet reached a breakthrough experience with Mescaline(havent tried a high enough dose), although in time Im sure Ill walk with San Pedro:)
The research chems are really interesting, I am very careful with them however - nothing earthshattering so far.
LSA/HBWR have provided some deep, introspective experiences for me as well.
Psychedelcs changed my life forever. I feel like Im a much more open, understanding, and hopeful person because of the experiences Ive had. As long as you treasure and respect them for the poweful sacraments they are - the magic never goes away:)
Mezza
sterling77
30-04-2005, 01:05
Weed...because it opened me to so many things. Without it would
have never tried shrooms, opiates, salvia, adderall (am trying X this
weekend!). Shifted my thinking patterns and everything, made me
take things less seriously and enjoy food! However not on good
terms with it right now, im lazier more stressed and more
unstable. Can't stop analyzing everything...just need to take a
break
Yeah - I smoked marijuna daily for nearly 3 years. Toward the end of that run, I was barely enjoying it like I had in the beginning. I was just getting, like you said, all hyperanalytical and parnoid. Although it never made me lazy. I took about 5 months off, and recently Ive taken to enjoying a bowl every week or so, and wouldnt you know it the magic has returned:)
Mezza
hard2core
03-05-2005, 16:20
Weed was numbing
Cocaine was exciting
Alcohol was elusive
But DXM and LSD were enlightening.
prospero
04-05-2005, 12:14
LSD I guess, because it gave me my first ++++ spiritual experience, and made me realise there was a hell of a lot more to drugs than simply having a fun time. Since that trip (in 1999) my entire outlook on life has changed, and drugs have become an intrinsic part of my life journey.
MescalinePirate
09-05-2005, 11:40
Salvia definately made me less depressed.
But the biggest impact on my life would have to be Datura. Talking with
a friend who died when we were 15 [I'm 19 now] definately put things in
place for me.
falsewonderment
15-05-2005, 05:43
5-MeO-DMT
Pinkavvy
15-05-2005, 06:23
lsd and salvia mostly
I tried yage last night for the first time. The experience by far
blew acid out the water. Im still trying to put together a coherent
summary of the experience. With lsd I saw what was in my head. With
yage I saw what was in gods head. Scary and beautifull.
5-meo-dmt
It was too much far too soon in my psychedelic career, but I am happy I did it after all. Life just hasn't been the same ever since.
Nature Boy
18-05-2005, 21:42
LSD had the most instant effect on my life but overall I think cannabis has changed me the most. I used to be a very aggressive, confrontational person who used to start fights and get up to no good. I was on the wrong path. I've had five concussions from fights in my teens.
Pot mellows me out. Gets rid of the anger, kind of holds me together in a way. I have a mate who was a lot worse than me but he totally changed as well after a few years of smoking pot. The change could be down to hormones and just plain growing up, but I feel as though pot changed my life significantly for the better.
Unsolved
18-05-2005, 22:59
Extacy. Can't believe there isn't more extacy replies. It forces you to look at things differently. I like it cause I usually look at the bad side of things instead of the good side. That's what e basically does for me anyways.
afromonkey
24-05-2005, 18:09
I'd have to say MDMA, and not purely for the good parts of the experience, but also for the awful come-down
What drug changed your life the most?
Myself i haven't tried too many things yet, but i feel that i'm up for some new insights into my life...
And in what way did it change things, and was it for better or worse?!
Nicotine. For the worse, because it's the only one I haven't been able to kick for more than brief periods in the past 26 years, and it's the only drug that gives me little or no high -- it's 99.5% pure maintenance. Also it contributed to a fairly mild (but seems to be slowly getting worse) case of emphysema. Got a few smallish lumps under my tongue that need checked too, could be cancer for all I know.
The crap is addictive as hell, and one of the few drugs I actually think should be illegal... ironic that it's one of the few that's not.Edited by: Nicaine
Diphenhydramine
24-05-2005, 19:23
Marijuana definitely changed SWIM's whole perspective on drugs.
DXM allowed SWIM to experience a new high, a new experience.
Adderal gave SWIM a scary experience with addiction, but also opened new musical barriers (techno, acid, ambient, house).
No other drugs as of yet have done the same.
afromonkey
24-05-2005, 20:27
God, yes, nicaine!
It's a testament to nicotine's insidiousness that i didn't even think of mentioning it.
definatly DXM.
it wasn't the first drug i ever used. and it's really a toss-up on whether it's the one i have used the most frequently (i'm not a big weed smoker). but it has really changed me, mostly for the better, heheh. i used to be extremely unconfident, insecure, self-conscious, and shy. i realized that when i'm on DXM all my fears seem to disappear. i was always worried about how other people were judging me, except when on DXM. eventually through a long (but not so painful http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley2.gif) process i felt the way i did on DXM when i was sober ("confidence, shy, etc." wise). now i no longer have any of those problems. i'm sure i owe it all to DXM.
of course there are other things it has done for me, but i find that to be the most important.
Same for me. =]
I used to be really quiet and nervous and DXM kinda changed my brain since I stopped usin it months ago and still happy and carefree now. It's SO worth the rehab, hospitalization, and almost dying twice on that shit. <3 =D
LSD made a huge impact on my life, and still is impacting it. It has given me large amounts of resources on how to change my life more daily. Giving me tons of spiritual insight and showing me the cosmos within and without.
MescalinePirate
26-05-2005, 12:52
2C-E - Showed me how I could be intellectual and that there actually is a God and generally made me a more positive person.
I have never understood how people come to the conclusion that there is
a God from drug experiences. That would be like me saying that Datura
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The one that did it for me was LSD with some stupid English "friends"
I only had tried marijuana before lsd. I thought I was dead among dead
people. Then I tryied it again and agian and again, and now my brain is
like a jello
MescalinePirate
29-05-2005, 05:29
Mmmmmm. Jello...
Exactly how often were you using LSD to make you think it turned your brain like Jello?
Edited by: MescalinePirate
2C-E - Showed me how I could be intellectual and that there actually is a God and generally made me a more positive person.
I have never understood how people come to the conclusion that there is
a God from drug experiences. That would be like me saying that Datura
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What if the Datura (or etc.) made you realize your flatmate was a
really good person at heart, or at least made you have some kind of
useful insight about him?
Words are just labels ... if it's a positive experience that deepens
your appreciation for life, in all its mystery and poignancy, and alleviates your fear of death, then
hey.... call it what ya will....
It is good to try and put these things into words, up to a point.
The G-word does have a bit of baggage, I agree. Maybe there are
better ones, like love or intelligence. Capitalized, of course,
to show how special I am for feeling them .... oops. http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley2.gif
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MescalinePirate
01-06-2005, 14:24
Realising things like love and stuff, sure, I agree that drugs can
impact that. But to believe suddenly in something because you saw it or
interacted with it in some way while your mind was altered by drugs
will just never make reasonable sense to me.
Opiates and alcohol have had the deepest impact in my life.
Opiates were a part of my life before I had even heard of other
drugs. When I was young, heroin claimed the life of my aunt, and
by eight years old I was already aware that addiction had taken hold of
my mother and sister... Still, I had my first experience when I
was young, about 12, and dabbled for about 2 or 3 more years, before
getting sucked into the beauty of papaver somniferum. I'm just
now kicking the habit for real, about 4 years after my daily use
began. Still, I don't hold any hostility toward the
substance. Despite the pain I go through to leave it behind, it
really did affect my life for the better while I used, as it mellowed
out my normal neurotic behavior enough that I could meet those who are
now my closest friends (including my girlfriend of about 3 1/2 years)
without them ever knowing that I had such a crutch.
Alcohol has given me one of my deepest insights, believe it or not,
though it was in sobriety that I had my revelation. After a
particularly nasty bender, my ability to conquer inborn alcoholic
tendencies made me realize that I have the fortitude to overcome nearly
any obstacle, especially other addictions.
My insights are usually ABOUT the drug, not brought upon BY the
drug. Psychadelics don't do it for me, and I don't find them
particularly fun. I don't care too much for weed. Adderall
and its kin (not meth) showed me that my addictive personality is
strong enough that I can't really try a substance even once without
feeling the cravings as if I'd been on it for years. I've seen
too many friends change in every possible way as a result of coke, and
will never touch the stuff. Similarly, my hometown is one of the
largest meth producers in the country, so I grew up seeing meth
everyday, where ever I looked... When every street corner has a
person whose face is covered in meth-sores holding a sign begging for
change, that one isn't appealing.
Despite my post, I don't think drugs are bad, for the record, but I
think people should better understand what they're doing. I wish
I had.
God, yes, nicaine!
It's a testament to nicotine's insidiousness that i didn't even think of mentioning it.
It's a nightmare. Over a lifetime it may be more expensive than heroin, & even H gives a better high to an addict than nicotine.
Hope nobody here starts smoking or dipping snuff if they don't already. Crap, sniff glue if it keeps ya away from nicotine. http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley5.gif Edited by: Nicaine
phenethylamine
06-06-2005, 18:51
LSD has changed and will continue to change my life, off one experience. When trying LSD, it is a good idea to make sure that it is as pure as you can get it, and you have to be in the right frame of mind for this. (If you think it will be horrible brain damaging terror, it would feel that way, if you think it will be a mind expanding key to understand, it can be that way) Once you are comfortable with the trip, try to just meditate. It's the art of just sitting.Unfocus your eyes and let the visuals take you.With a sincere attempt at this, you would be surprised at what your brain can actually do.
Swim would have to say Ecstacy. It was the closest Swim has ever been to Heaven without dying. The insights she gained, a year ago last month, are still with her and changed the way she thinks and have felt since then. Swim considers it a sacred experience. She is so glad that someone introduced her to it. Swim respects it immensely.
If you mean in a single sitting, LSD has produced the largest change in
my way of approaching the world. It is a powerful drug that has the
ability to radically alter various aspects of your mind. Nothing like
an intense introspective trip to breathe fresh life into you.
However,</span> the drug that has
changed me the most in total is definitely good 'ol marijuana. After
smoking that stuff three times a day for a year, it has become just
another part of my personality. I may quite smoking the reefer, but
I'll always be a stoner.
writeright
09-06-2005, 01:35
Marijuana, definitely. Though other drugs have furthered my understanding of who/what I am more than weed has, I would never have tried anything else ifit weren't for marijuana first.
Also, after I started to smoke, I became a generally more accepting person. I opened myself to everything, and only after having a good understanding of it did I form my own opinion of it.
Did that make any sense? I hope so.
jaguarangel
16-06-2005, 08:35
LSD (when it was legal). My first time, I realized the meaning of life, the
interconnectedness of life and realizing life is perfect, all is good! Then, I
used it to improve my sensual life and I learned to extend and feel
outwardly (intensifying sensation all over the body).
This is a great thread, BTW.
I'd have to say for me it was Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds.
They basically messed me up pretty badly. I did 10 seeds this last
Christmas. I was strung out and tripping for 2 days. But I didn't really
'hallucinate'. I just got paranoid and time stood still. I became one with
myself and realized a lot.
It didn't end though. I had terrible anxiety, insomnia, and everything. But
it was all good, really. I ended up going to the doctor and finding a lot
out. I ended up finding out about a pituitary tumor I had, testosterone
deficiency, and a thyroid problem (and later even rheumatoid arthritis).
NONE of this was due to the drugs of course. But I might never had found
out about these problems (or maybe even found out too late) if it hadn't
been for my bad trip.
Needless to say, I was scared shitless about drugs after this experience
and it has taken me this long to get back to normal. (I'm on Lexapro and I
think this helped me.)
Anyways, I learned a LOT about myself and at the time it was a terrible
experience, but I am thankful for it.
And I'm back to exploring again- this time with opiates and benzos.
I have never understood how people come to the conclusion that there is a God from drug experiences. That would be like me saying that Datura made me realise that my flatmate is actually a zombie http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley36.gif
Iknow many people have experienced the Divine during a drug induced altered state. For some of these people it mayhave been their first mystical experience, and that experience changed their personal view of God. Really there is not much to understand about it.The Divine transcends concepts and rationality. Mabyesomeday you willunderstand once you have experienced what is.
I don't understand your zombie analogy.
In response to this thread, marijuana has changed SWIM's life the most. Mainly by changing his lifestyle. He has had much more profound experiences on other substances, but marijuana has had the most impact on everyday life.
Sloppo
jaguarangel
26-07-2005, 03:30
Swim's friend had total ego loss on K. It changed the view of fear of death.
It was mushrooms for me. I had a bout of depression for around 2 years, after 3 therapy sessions with mushrooms i had pretty much discovered what my problems were and how i could cometo fix them.
Ecstacy. Weed, Coke, DXM, Vicodin...all those are great, but E is the
only drug, for me, that has actually made me happy, enjoying life.
Since the first time I did it, I've definitly been more outgoing. Other
than E, Weed definitly opened a whole new way to live life for me.
Trippopotamus
03-08-2005, 08:31
Definitely MDMA. It has brought so much goodness to me that I sometimes
forget some things it has done... Then I remember and rejoice.
1. Respect for music amplified by nearly 10 times.
2. Helped me look at my problems from a new view and realize that they were not all that bad or found simple ways to solve them.
3. I now like to learn new things, and have a desire for knowledge (which can't be bad can it?).
4. Respect for people heightened immensely. I enjoy company and dont judge people.
5. I used to be very shy and now realize that its much more fun to talk to people and try new things.
6. I can recall the ecstatic feeling for brief moments when I get put
in a happy situation or hear some good music. Sometimes I feel like a
small part of the drug has been trapped in my body, occasionally being
used, even though that is not possible.
I know ive left a million things out. I feel like a new important part
of my brain has been unlocked. A life changing experience for the
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a-SalviaLover
06-08-2005, 11:06
Shroomzies deffinately. If there was LSD in my region, it would probably be LSD. BUT I still think I'll like shroomzies most!
BrandonAA
06-08-2005, 11:12
the Holy and Sacred Pussy of the female species! Hallelujiah!
BrugmansiaBrujo
07-08-2005, 01:18
LSD changed my way of looking at the outside world, and all the other people in it, in a very profound and permanent way.
I have not been able to locate any LSD in a few years, decades actually.
So now currently, when I need to "get my head straight" I turn to mescaline in the cacti I grow.
weed.
playing guitar stoned with friends is one of the best things life has to offer.
dillydude
08-08-2005, 05:35
Alcolhol was the number one biggie for me, it was my gateway for all other drugs. It first led to smoking, then weed, and so on up to at least one form of drug from each category, to my now favorite opiates and soon to be kratom.
It's a damn shame that feeling good,( in the eyes of society ) has to be so bad.Edited by: dillydude
Sklander
09-08-2005, 03:13
That magical substance known as MDMA. Me and a friend had the greatest times of our lives thusfar... We both recognized that the drug was changing us in a way that was hurting our family and friends so we have since dropped the habit.
definitely mdma. brought my wife and I closer together and further out on the edge than I ever thought possible. I discovered a whole new dimensionin her that steel shines even though we rarely do mdma anymore. 2ci and 5meo mipt good experiences. Alcohol is my demon.
i'd have to say prescription inhalers i had when i was younger. they got me into drugs without any peer pressure at all. up until high school i only had straight edge friends who hated the sound of drugs, and my parents and all other adults in my life said not to go near them. my complete freak accident with my inhaler where i took around 30 puffs at once led me to want to try other "things" all on my own. if i hadn't had that inhaler i would probably be one of those straight edge kids that rats on others for smokin in their dorms, the real assholes. i would choose no other path in life than tha path of experimentation, all thanks to an alergic reaction to an antibiotic and the inhaler i was prescribed.
RickyTarr
11-08-2005, 17:17
Definitely mushrooms.The sense of connectedness to the universe is unparalleled for me. A good set and setting really takes me places. I do it maybe once every few years for a different perspective on those years.
Ricky Tarr
FrankenChrist
11-08-2005, 23:58
i'd have to say prescription inhalers i had when i was younger. they got me into drugs without any peer pressure at all. up until high school i only had straight edge friends who hated the sound of drugs, and my parents and all other adults in my life said not to go near them. my complete freak accident with my inhaler where i took around 30 puffs at once led me to want to try other "things" all on my own. if i hadn't had that inhaler i would probably be one of those straight edge kids that rats on others for smokin in their dorms, the real assholes. i would choose no other path in life than tha path of experimentation, all thanks to an alergic reaction to an antibiotic and the inhaler i was prescribed.
Jesus! I once nearly got a heart attack from overdoing Ventolin. Seriously, I thought I was going to die.
MushroomTrip
12-09-2005, 13:48
Every drug i tried chaneged my life in a manner. I can't relly tell which of them has changed my life the most, because i think everything i've learned from every each of them is important. But i cann tell you about the first "revelation" i had. I mean the very first thing i learned from a drug and changed my entire view on the world. It was the first time i did coke. Five years ago. The circumstances were that i was in a place with a bunch of paranoid people and wee all did coke and they acted like they were insane. So it was very hard for me because i was not feeling bad, i mean the coke for mewas excellent and didn't made me paranoid or insane. But the "vibrations" around me were very negative. So, soon i realized i had two options: first to let myself feel as bad as they did, and second, try to make my own thoughts and feel good and just ignore what was going on around me. So of course i choosed the second. And you know what? It worked. Very soon i was being able to think about good things, i started to undrestand many things about human behaviour and psychology and everyone around me was yelling and acting very stupid and i was smiling. And i never took drugs with people like that.
After this EXPERIENCE followed many more with other drugs, every each of them being very important to me.
Leafteaner
14-09-2005, 10:19
Weed definitely had the biggest impact on my life as it was the first drug i tried. But mushrooms, especiallya few ofmy more intense trips, have changed my outlook on life and reality the most. Ego death and other things I could never have imagined being possible happened to me and changed me mostly for the better
fugazi32
15-09-2005, 03:12
...erm; well, probably LSD since it was the first drug I ever did (even before I started smoking loads of skunk) or MDMA (pills), although pills have lost the magic......it's definately gotta be acid man; it unlocked parts of my mind i'd previously never dared to delve into. http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley1.gif
For swim, Weed and shrooms made changes for the good. Cocaine is probably for the bad. Hasn't done it in a while and was never addicted, but hestill can't seem to get it out of his mind completly Edited by: thegod1
Crackkim
27-09-2005, 19:11
crack freebase can't do with out it
jatzstoned
29-09-2005, 03:25
shrooms created an entire new personality for me i think, so id have to say thats a monumental thing http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley2.gif
ambrosius
29-09-2005, 07:04
SWIM wouldhave to say X. He's never felt a euphoria like that and hasn't since that first time. Happiness comes in small doses. X was an overdose. It was wonderful.
Definitely Acid and Meth later. Acid made me look at the world from a different perspective while Meth made me psychotic.
Crackkim
05-10-2005, 02:16
i heard some ppl talking about smomeble meth ? isa it good high ?
ambrosius
05-10-2005, 04:11
From what I understand, yes, but also dangerous.
Crackkim
06-10-2005, 17:35
laast week i heard some girl talk about smokeble meth
she says its better high than crack
i havent tried it because its hard to live with one addiction so i woul like to hears ome opinions
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watchtower
16-10-2005, 12:24
it could be 1 of only 2 drugs
weed the most, it made me grow a passion for life.
and i guess you can say meth changed me too, it made me grow a passion to hate tweakers
Swim has been heard to say and think out loud that LSD was his most powerful potentially altering, but having taken it at 17, an age where people are still evolving and changing rapidly (seems to slow down after 25 or so, swim finds), it's hard to measure the impact as in "what would swim's persona be like if he hadn't taken LSD".
otherwise, more insiduous, cannabis, because of regular use which causes more subtle changes, and a slight disconnection, swim found out after having quit over 3 weeks. Nothing terrible for swim, but present. Years of use probably changed something in swim. But these things are really hard to measure because the benchmark isn't really there, we always change, but especially before 25, swim finds, so who knows...
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Red_Baran
21-10-2005, 04:24
Well first off weed because pretty much ever since SWIM tried, SWIM has been a daily user (got rid of swims DEEP depression (tried ssri’s and other shit nothing ever worked))<?:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />
Second would be MDMA (well ecstasy, god knows whets in those pills) it helped swim deal with people, swim hates people I know it sounds ruff but swim hates almost everyone, everyone seems pisses swim off in someway or another swim also have social anxiety disorder. With ecstasy it helped swim realize that theirs no resin to hate everyone, it has also helped me deal with my anxiety disorder
whereareyou
23-10-2005, 21:01
it may sound odd, but alcohol for sure. alcohol is the only reason that i have tried anything else. i drank so much that i wanted to try other things, including meth and ecstacy. i consider alcohol a gateway drug, not weed. but thats just me.
cannabis has a certain deteriorating effect on my mental state after years of heavy use,but for eyeopening it could be shrooms or ecstasy,the euphoria seems to give me a wider understanding of my freinds & family whilst buzzin but never really had a life changing experience
the blue letter
27-10-2005, 07:14
Mushrooms taught me about the interconnectedness of life and showed me
how our mother earth is struggling to sustain us. They remind me
that im growing up, comfort me when Im in times of great change or
misunderstanding and they remind me that heroin is was and will always
be a bad life decision and how i cant ever go back to what was the most
important drug in my life for so long. Mushrooms are the earths
way of imparting its ancient wisdom and nurturing onto us. That
crazy fungi kingdom has been around a long time and knows the deal.
They're like your sageful old grandpa but even older and with wicked
crazy imagery
I took a lot of drugs, mostly hallucinogenics from my late teens, but it wasnt until I got adicted to Ketamine and had a couple of religious experiences while K-holed that I felt a drug had actualy altered the way I thought about the world.
pharmapsyche
20-11-2005, 19:44
The first drug that has actually changedSWIM's life, for the better, would be Tetrahydrocannabinol--aka:marijuana. Marijuana has made her have so many new and exciting thoughts and idea's and it has also provokedher to be creative on a whole new level. SWIM has had so many fun times with marijuana, alone and with friends!
BrugmansiaBrujo
20-11-2005, 21:31
Crackkim,
Smokable meth is indeed a very nice high. I generally detest meth, though I have tried it in all forms except injected.
I'd say if you have an addictive personality, and are already addicted
to one drug, you would be wise to stay away from this one.
It's what happens to people when they get addicted to meth that makes
me detest the drug. The high itself is nice, but especially when
smoked, the instant high is particularly addictive.
Myself, I can try some meth, then leave it alone for several months
before trying it again. Apparently few people are as resistant to
it's charms as I am. If you even think you would have a hard time
resisting it's charms, you would be best to leave it alone and stick to
your current drug of choice.
At the very least, if you want to try it, make sure you have no further
supplies immediately available to you, and that you do not know where
to get more supplies. Then maybe you could give it a try safely
without risk of another addiction.
dark_emotions
29-11-2005, 09:40
The drug that changed my life the most would definately be E
I use to do it all the time, we would all get together at my buddy's house or goto the most awesome club in the worldFriday and Saturday nights and do at least 2 E's in a night (I never did more than that) and a few of my buddy's would do 3 or 4 in a night and if we were at my buddy's house for at least and hour or 2 we would listen to him play guitar, he was really good at playing Rage Against Machine...so that was a trip in itself
And E makes you think and talk about this with people you normally wouldnt talk about or wouldnt be that interested in talking about on a normal day...but it's been about a year now since I have done it, my tolerance built up and I didnt get that "fuzzy high" anymore, and the last time I had a bad trip, I mean BAD....not to blow this out of porportion but I did almost die from it, and I honestly am scared to go back and do it again....even though lately I have been craving it BIG TIME...I think I might do it one more time......for old times sake.....http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley4.gif
dextrorotatory
29-11-2005, 16:17
I personally hate it when people
start a post by stating “I haven’t read anyone else’s post but im gonna say
this anyway” but given the lengthy nature (and daunting number) of the replies I’m
going to give this hubris a shot. </span>
Although I personally hate the stuff
I’d like to speak for all those people out there who won’t read this but should
be spoken for. </span>Alcohol has changed quite
a few lives; perhaps because of its legal status/prevalence maybe because of
its socially autocatalyzing dynamics and definitely because of its reinforcing
nature. </span>Naturally most lives changed by alcohol
aren’t changed for the better but they are indeed changed. </span>So there’s a shout-out for all the alkies out
there, may Jesus’ god bless them and their ways…
every single way the human been take, change definitly his life, each life
exist in only very actual day. not in what the experience give, but in the
experience.
I have grow up with chocolate until cocaine, with cannabis unti datura, with
mushrooms until salvia, and every single experience has chance definitly my
life. The way i see the world. That is what we are talking about, is not it?
dark_emotions
01-12-2005, 01:06
I personally hate it when people start a post by stating “I haven’t read anyone else’s post but im gonna say this anyway” but given the lengthy nature (and daunting number) of the replies I’m going to give this hubris a shot.
First of all, you obviously havent read anyone's answers either....Alcohol....come on man get with it!!!!!!http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/smileys/smiley7.gifEdited by: dark_emotions
dextrorotatory
01-12-2005, 02:32
"I’m going to give this hubris a shot. "
I know, I admitted I hadn't read them.
IHrtHalucingens
07-12-2005, 09:30
Shrooms have changed my life the most. They allow for so much intraspection and self-help in my opinion. I think it has helped me become a better person overall.
tombstone
12-12-2005, 03:16
4-ho-dipt, though swim has had great experiences with mdma, 4-ho-dipt was his first real psychedelic drug. Altohugh it wasnt always a good trip, it was intresting.
The drug that most drastically changed my life is a prescription drug, adderall. I recently stopped taking it but i had been on it for years. By taking it i had more energy and could work for frickin ever and rarely took breaks or lunch breaks even, which resulted in some nice pay raises at the work place, but overall the result was negative. I had taken it for so long that the apetite reduction evolved into a general aversion for solid food, it started seeming like a chore to have to eat. i was up to 90 mgs of the XR type every morning, and going for days and days at a time without eating anything, sleeping very little. Eventually I crashed hard. I decided to quit and have had that same aversion for food since, im about 4 monthes from my last dose, and skinny as a toothpick, ha.
melt_000
30-01-2006, 20:21
i really haven't had any single life-changing experience, but as a group, traditional psychedelics such as acid,lsa,mushrooms have definitely changed the way i think. and yet it seems like a familiar experience, like something i felt before but i don't know when. and it's like remembering something that i forgot, but i don't know how to describe it because i forget it again on coming down. did you ever think that maybe drugs just make us think they're giving us meaning, when there's nothing behind it? i can't ever seem to understand the meaning when i'm sober. or it lacks definition.
Ecstacy. I didn't know what heaven is until the night I tried X. At one moment, while dancing on techno music and ligh shows, I dont know if I just tought or I really said: Whoa! I want to live in this bliss forever! The lights, the music, the people, the dance, the body and the mind was just one: the Dance. I tought then, that I would have NO complains if I just DIE tomorrow when it's over, because so great is the joy of ecstacy, that trading life for just one magic night, IS worth. Anything. Everything. Let me die, but let me dance 'till day comes and the night is over.. The magic was never like that first time. Now I'm older and I don't trade my life or health (ehm..) for drugs.
If ectsacy was first in it's unique way, roids changed me later in another very different way.
pumped3.16
24-02-2006, 14:53
testosterone, i went from average joe weekend junkie too not a half bad athlete,lol
salvia really changed the way swim viewed the world... it opend parts of swims mind that she did not know existed and made swim see things in a new way....
lsd as well....... its a real eye opener
x
raven3davis
25-02-2006, 04:16
SWIM was actually changed by three drugs. First LSD, then shrooms then DMT. For some reason these drugs effected swim the most.
Well, I'm not sure.. Indeed the first time I did X was amazing.. But did it really change me? Shrooms didn't do almost anything to me but I feel that when I do them again, they will hit me hard.. I think weed has done something to me.. I appreciate nature more than ever..
Ecstasy was my first real drug (weed 1st) that gave me the curiosity to try other drugs. Since then I have experienced many different drugs and have altered my perceptions in many ways. I am glad to have experimented with these imagination enhancers because it has led me to meet many new and interesting people and has changed my attitude and views on many subjects. Many drugs bring people together and can be extremely beneficial to life if used wisely...
What drug changed your life the most?
While Acid and Mushies were certainly the most dramatic players, Smack was nice and E was clear and beautiful I would have to say that the one really good Mescaline trip I had changed things the most because it was so profound and yet so mellow.
It didnt have any of the downsides I've come to associate with most hallucinogens - it was not like a drug 'trip' which obviously had to come to an end and it didnt have that sense of, 'this is great - but I'm frying my brain' or that quite distressing feeling - 'I think I have a slight case of poisoning' - though mind you I was only 17 when I took it. While similar experiences occured during some other trips the Mescaline one more than any other said, 'life could really be this way all the time if only you can find a way to stay in this space'.
That set the direction for my life and put me on the search for a way to find this space in my ordinary life and build my house there.
Forthesevenlakes
27-02-2006, 22:30
even though its not SWIMs favorite anymore, dxm for sure. the profound introspection and personal revelations it can force one to confront certainly had an impact on him changing certain bad habits ingrained in his life. also, the intriguing nature of the drug got me questioning at a young age how exactly drugs could produce effects on the brain, which in turn sparked a lifelong love of science and neurobiology/psychology in general. so, in a sense, dxm helped SWIM find his current career path =D
godismdma
27-02-2006, 23:30
I personally have to say MDMA....the things I've learned and knowledge of myself is unbelievable! Just a question to all those that stated X was thier life changing drugs how many actually tested the pills they ate to see if it was MDMA,MDA, or some other chemical like 2C-t-7?
cactus definately i think i got baptized into some cactus religion
shrooms gave swim insight into himself and lsd and mescaline gave swim insight into the world around him. also for swim marijuana gave insight both .........
fishinabottle
29-07-2006, 12:51
The drug which changed my life most was for sure (meth)amphetamine, but I wouldn´t say that it changed my life to the better in the longer run.
The drug which changed my mind to the better is without any question LSD and this drug also helped me to kick a year long nasty speed habit.
Marijuana, It really is the "gateway" drug..... DXM also contributed to swim's intrigue in the power of psychedelics..
Marijuana, It really is the "gateway" drug
If you are going to lay down such a stiff claim, you might as well explain why you think so. Do you mean it has been a gateway drug for you or it is in general? Please explain...
prescription
31-07-2006, 09:39
prolly E or mushrooms for me, E because it opened my eyes in terms of relationships and friendships (even if it might have felt a bit drug induced during the comedown) and mushrooms because of the interesting personal insights and many amusing hallucinations.
Had it not been for mary jane, swim would of never thought about stimulating one's mind to a higher degree.. some of swim's friends always told him it was the gateway drug, and indeed it was.. at least for swim...she just made me want to push the issue further and further.. haven't stopped since...
They've all been catalysts for swim. The change has always been a part of swim. Change is the me that exists outside the now. It is something swim is perpetually waking up to. Certain beautiful compounds can only speed up or slow down the perception of this process.
So swim's short answer would be all of them, including the ones swim hasn't metabolized yet.
Biggest change for swim was E. After swim talked to people on E swim became way more secure and less held back. Swim has no more issues with telling people anything.
tloving598
29-08-2006, 01:57
I have to say out of Swim's extensive esperience with mushrooms, speed, aderol, marijuana, pcp, ritalin, percocet, morphine, salvia and a few others, his most profound enlightenment actually came from good old Ganj. Despite the fact that both Mushrooms and salvia were very insightful experiences, weed definitely did the most for Swim. A few months back after quiting pot for a few years swim decided to get a bit of blueberry chrons. Occasionally swim would smoke and just chill, each time becoming more paranoid, essentially that paranoia changed into motivation for action and has now been a driving force for Swim's entry into the world of film. Swim is so thankful for the perspective gained from it and believes that while weed is considered one of the less potent drugs, it certainly has the capability of insight aswell and should be regarded as such.
Cheers
naturespirals
06-09-2006, 05:26
SWIM had done many drugs before trying DXM(pure form before ever robo-ing it up) but DXM opened SWIMS eyes to a world beyond existence, an alternate reality that one would only find on dxm. DXM is the only drug that has provided swim with an out of body experience(lasting several hours) and since that day swim has looked at every drug and pretty much everything in a new light. it brought swim from the typical disposition of doing drugs to get fucked up, to that of using drugs as a vessel for finding yourself.
SWIM smoked pot and his first door was opened watching "The Wall", "yellow Submarine" and Fear and loathing. He never exp anything like the music and images he saw.
Shrooms were good
E didnt really change his life, just enhanced it
But this is a first SWIM can say Meth gave him the best perspective esp when combined with pot. He was able to write down and get his philosphy out of him on his perception on life. But if he had never done LSD, E, Marijuana, DXM, coke and heroin he'd never be able to write what he's seen and lived
El Calico Loco
08-09-2006, 13:35
I don't use drugs personally, but a friend of mine has some experience with these things. I asked him this question. Here is what he said:
Overall, the drug that changed my life the most was 2C-E. It takes off the filters...all of the layers of ego and defense mechanisms you've built up. Gives you some emotional detachment and lets you look at yourself and the world objectively. It's helped everyone I know who has tried it (some of them with serious problems).
DXM is the next step for those who really need some shock therapy. I was just doing it for recreation when suddenly, on a third-plateau trip, a whole bunch of shit from my childhood came up. Really traumatic shit that I had dissociated. I had to go play detective and interview witnesses to find out what happened, because though the memory was missing the pain was still there. Now it's gone.
5-meo-dmt is just a mindfuck. You can experience the experience of experience. You can be the being that exists. I AM. Et cetera. Crazy powerful.
ECL
MizzWhizz
08-09-2006, 20:23
base and meth, as swim just fell in love with whacking them, so swim became a junkie. swim lived under pretty extraodinary circumstances and learned a lot about the bad side of people. swim feels she really grew up in that time, but is gratefull for having lived the life. it was pretty rock 'n roll and that is what swim has a soft spot for. swim also once has a lsd trip that went very very wrong, eventhough swim and friends (not on lsd and trying to helpher)still believe it was the worst night of their live, swim wouldnt want to be without the experience as it was so amazing (but awful awful awful...)
:o
Darksanity
23-10-2006, 04:34
1- Marijuana
2- LSD
3- MDMA (Ecstasy)
peregrin23
26-10-2006, 02:34
definitely 'shrooms,their ability to quite literally ground you,to reveal the earths vibrant sexuality and most importantly show how VERY much they and everything else loves you.....what greater affirmation of life can there be,so yeh definitely the mighty mushrooms.
omen8productions
26-10-2006, 06:09
my early experiences with MDMA were life-altering. i was told to look into the mirror briefly at the onset*and i saw a reflection of the pure good nature in my soul. everyone else had that glow. the air was thick and electric. most of the kids knew eachother and were also having their first rolls.
the next day was almost as equally amazing. not excessive talk of the previous night, but a common bond. one i came to know and love that seemed to happen after every new, intense chemical event. friends relaxing and reviewing pieces of the newly exposed psyche.
and smoking a lot of weed.
CrookedEye
28-10-2006, 03:38
Well, swim would love to say LSD, mushrooms, DMT, and mescaline, but all drug use, including his addiction to heroin, have made profound changes in his mind.. Ibogaine changed his addiction, or at least helped him change it.. DMT, LSD, shrooms, and mescaline all changed his views... Cannabis helped change his views and allowed for much introspection.. Every single experience swim lives through, effects how his life proceeds. So, to pick out one, he would be denying the role that each has played... ;)
Ghost Pipe
28-10-2006, 20:15
For the external I would say MDMA, it helped me get over a social anxiety that hindered me in crowds.
now for the internal i would have to say lsd, has given me insite about myself and the universe around me, it also opened my mind to a train of thought(quantum theory stuff) that would have never been traveled if it weren't for lsd
augentier
29-10-2006, 21:08
First post here on the forums..so i'll say Hey first ;)
I've dabbled in several different drugs, but the one that has changed me the most is definitely good ol Marijuana. The hours upon hours I have spent smoking alone have definitely opened my mind to a level I didn't think I'd get to before. It helps me to just chill and analyze the aspects of life that intrigue me the most - spirituality, God, my relationships with others..
It has caused me to be much more easy-going, accepting, friendly, outgoing, and happy. I have yet to experience LSD or any equally as strong mind-blowing drugs, but until I do, it's safe to say that weed is what made me what I am.
azrael2600
29-10-2006, 21:19
SWIM would have to say MDMA. because before swim ever took MDMA swim never knew that swim could get so euphoric in their life before.
augentier
29-10-2006, 21:30
Excuse my ignorance...what does the hell does SWIM mean? I see it all over these forums..is it an acronym for something?
Psych0naut
29-10-2006, 22:42
SWIM=Someone Who Isn't Me. No one on this forum does illegal things, only people we know, for example SWIM, who is certainly someone who isn't me. SWIY(Someone Who Isn't You) might want to read the rules (http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/announcement.php?f=43&a=1), which explains more about it.
Akewstick
29-10-2006, 23:15
1-N2O
2-Ket
3-LSA
4-Speed
5-Weed
N2O changed the way SWIM thinks about god, faith, and spirituality.
Ket changed the way he thinks about people, society and the world.
LSA changed the way he thinks about his mind.
Speed made SWIM weigh less, robbed all of his money for months, and made him fight and argue and very nearly drive from his life various people he loves. It made him spend months in councelling and psychiatrists' offices and got him kicked out of his dad's house at the age of 17. It also got him an A in a politics exam, and a D in philosophy, which he otherwise would have been ejected from for missing one too many deadlines.
Weed forged incredible relationships with people that he can't imagine will ever be broken, even if he never sees these people for years, it also helped ensure that he didn't get into the universities he had the potential to. SWIM isn't saying weed alone stopped him achieving anything, he's just saying that the thing he decided to do instead of studying was get stoned every day, so all you "Legalise It" nuts can just chill the fuck out.
coolman899
07-11-2006, 01:59
1800 mg of dex
Forthesevenlakes
07-11-2006, 02:03
1800 mg of dex
Sounds like a dose that could be lethal to some. While it may have been life changing, be careful with that kind of firepower. Just because DXM is OTC doesnt mean its something to take lightly.
London_Bloke
07-11-2006, 02:57
MDMA.
SWIM's SIL described her first roll and SWIM was intrigued. SWIM got some (this was back "in the day") and rolled with hubby. Discovered something INCREDIBLE that day. SWIM is a big control freak and she learned that it was possible to express one's love for another, to let down her guard and the world didn't stop turning, SWIM didn't have a "Kick Me Hard" sign suddenly appear on her back. All the vulnerability SWIM expected to feel, insecurities screaming out - it never happened. SWIM's eyes were opened to the joys of loving and being fully loved in return and nothing bad happened. She didn't get kicked to the curb, she didn't lose anything - she gained a whole new world of emotions that didn't carry a price tag.
Iron Monkey
19-11-2006, 13:50
Its hard to specify just one,cannabis had a huge effect on swim as it was first drug swim really got into and introduced swim to this whole sub-culture,but hands down the drug which has shaped the person swim is today,for better or worse,is LSD.Swim still remembers the first time swim took it,was on swims own and swim really feels like it changed the way swim views the world and the possibilities that something good can come from it and that are petty little sufferings are all irrelevant in the grand scheme of things.Also swim feels that too much heavy cannabis can have a more desensitising effect rather than enlightening.
thecowman
23-11-2006, 11:43
herb man, definately
Fantasian
23-11-2006, 12:19
SWIF thinks all his major experiences changed his perception of himself and life massively. But he feels like it wasnt the drug that changed him, it was the experience. Watch someone die in real life and it will change you forever. Save someones life in real life and it will change you forever!
MDMA -SWIF feels like he understands true happiness, true love, true connection. Ultimately this is what we strive for in every relationship that we make. So to just touch the tip of the iceberg with MDMA/E once in a while can spur us on to do this. So shapable and so beautiful. This has so be on of SWIF's Favourites.
Shrooms - This gave SWIF a chance to reboot. Total ego loss, total lack of understanding and darkness. SWIF was able to let things go, to move on, to get passed some of his darker things in the past.
Morphine - To escape ones fears, yeh, escape, thats all this drug and experience is about for SWIF. It was the addiciton and the withdrawal that taught him the lesson about this drug. Fears must be faced, and battles of problems fought! Running or hiding is never the answer....
Ketamine + acid - Both of these taught SWIF there is so much more yet to learn. Due to his limited experience with each he hasnt yet learnt their lesson. Ketamines experience was definately darker and acids more intense but less morbid. I guess SWIF will find out in due time what each of these and more has to teach him.
The adventure continues....
The adventure of life....
SWIM may have said nicotine, but that's not really true. He would have to say cocaine... starting in the early 90s, SWIM binged (particularly on crack) and blew away a number of chances at having a good life. Between 2004 and 2006, he's managed to ruin three summers sitting indoors wasting money and destroying his health snorting that crap.
SWIM has sworn off cola (no more). He hopes cola has sworn off him too, but at times he's seemingly had little control over situations that have come up. And unfortunately he's been unable to just be done with stimulants in general (which coke introduced him to -- like a bad girlf