cyndi
23-06-2007, 15:29
Dear meth,
Thank you so much for the good times in my life. I had such a wonderful enlightening experience when you are there. You were there for me when nobody else was since they think you are bad and am causing me to be a bad person. You make me a better person since you know I can have you day and night. I can't sleep because your company is so much better. You make all my pain go away since I can't feel it anymore, that is so much better than dealing with it. I don't care if my family is messed up because you are there to comfort me. My son is into you too, that is good, he can feel like I do. Oh my brother is in prison, hahaha what a loser, he had a lot of time with you too but you got him good when he killed a man. You are so wonderful for seeing that he is bad since he doesn't know how to use or make you resposibily. I spend so much time with you because you are the only thing in this world that loves me. Oh I know you have to teach me a lesson from time to time when I try to turn my back on you. My bad! I understand it when I am sick and need you to comfort me. Thank you for putting me in my place. Oh and my kids, they will take care of themselves, I have you after all. I don't even hardly remember their names or what they are doing like I even care. Is there food in the house? I don't know I am not hungry and don't care if anyone else is because you make me feel so complete. When anyone feels pain, you keep me from feeling it for them, and that is wonderful because I can't cry. I hate being sad you know. But gee you know and understand me so well. You don't judge me or call me a loser, I love you for that. People are so stupid to think you are bad. You make the users feel no pain and that is what counts. Oh you know I may end up without anyone but who cares, I will have you and I will do anything to have you. Money is no issue, I will find a way to keep you if it means stealing, lying, or even selling my body. You are worth it since you keep me from feeling pain. I can't feel anything anyway so I would have no regrets.
Love,
Me
I hope I didn't break a rule, but this is how swim feels when she is high and hopes that loved ones understand the addiction of this drug from a users standpoint, I know many are trying to understand why their child does this to them. If it seems pathetic to a user, that is good, come back and read this when you clean up. You will have to end up in the insanity to get it. I really hope mods don't remove this because it is a reality check. Peace and good luck to all in recovery. If the mods however feel they need to remove this post, it is ok as it can be harsh. But I feel young people and people trying to understand this drug need to know how a user feels.
Thank you so much for the good times in my life. I had such a wonderful enlightening experience when you are there. You were there for me when nobody else was since they think you are bad and am causing me to be a bad person. You make me a better person since you know I can have you day and night. I can't sleep because your company is so much better. You make all my pain go away since I can't feel it anymore, that is so much better than dealing with it. I don't care if my family is messed up because you are there to comfort me. My son is into you too, that is good, he can feel like I do. Oh my brother is in prison, hahaha what a loser, he had a lot of time with you too but you got him good when he killed a man. You are so wonderful for seeing that he is bad since he doesn't know how to use or make you resposibily. I spend so much time with you because you are the only thing in this world that loves me. Oh I know you have to teach me a lesson from time to time when I try to turn my back on you. My bad! I understand it when I am sick and need you to comfort me. Thank you for putting me in my place. Oh and my kids, they will take care of themselves, I have you after all. I don't even hardly remember their names or what they are doing like I even care. Is there food in the house? I don't know I am not hungry and don't care if anyone else is because you make me feel so complete. When anyone feels pain, you keep me from feeling it for them, and that is wonderful because I can't cry. I hate being sad you know. But gee you know and understand me so well. You don't judge me or call me a loser, I love you for that. People are so stupid to think you are bad. You make the users feel no pain and that is what counts. Oh you know I may end up without anyone but who cares, I will have you and I will do anything to have you. Money is no issue, I will find a way to keep you if it means stealing, lying, or even selling my body. You are worth it since you keep me from feeling pain. I can't feel anything anyway so I would have no regrets.
Love,
Me
I hope I didn't break a rule, but this is how swim feels when she is high and hopes that loved ones understand the addiction of this drug from a users standpoint, I know many are trying to understand why their child does this to them. If it seems pathetic to a user, that is good, come back and read this when you clean up. You will have to end up in the insanity to get it. I really hope mods don't remove this because it is a reality check. Peace and good luck to all in recovery. If the mods however feel they need to remove this post, it is ok as it can be harsh. But I feel young people and people trying to understand this drug need to know how a user feels.