my daily life.. daily use of caffeine/alcohol to numb feelings of emptiness

[thydarkprevails]

i wake up at 6 am for work, drink a full pot of coffee, i than drink coffee and 6-8 cokes throughout the day just to keep energized..i than go home, and have a few beers, and when it starts getting dark, a few turns into many, and i drink myself to sleep, because it's the only thing i can do to fall asleep, and it fixes the emptyness i feel inside me..i pass out around 1-3 am...and wake up at 6, and do it all over again..





i am 20 years old

[buzzkilowatt]

It sure sounds like you are depressed.



Paradoxically, alcohol interferes with good sleep. The three hours you are getting a night are not enough for good health. Physical exhaustion only adds to your feelings of emptiness.



Lots of people use stimulants (e.g. coffee) in the A.M. and have a drink in the evening. But the degree is everything.



Do you have a personal physician? Tell him/her that you can't sleep and that you have those empty feelings. I think you are a likely candidate for anti-depressants; they change many, many lives for the better.



Do you have any religious orientation? Opportunity to meet people and enjoy a relationship? These non-pharmaceutical things are ingredients in many happy people's lives.



- Buzz

[thydarkprevails]

i do meet a lot of people, and have positive friends....i am single, by choice..and religion is not something my intellect will allow my heart to follow..





i'm really not trying to get sympathy or anything..it just felt good to get this off of my chest





thanks for listening